chrysalis

​i awake and rise
from a sabbatical leave
inconveniently
 
filled with life lessons
unscheduled situations that derailed
previously arranged plans
ironic consistencies of my unsuspecting “to do list”
actively inactive and sessile in my slumber
sheathed in its soft tranquility
i underwent transformation, differentiation
fear of the past hinders action of the present stagnating hope of the future
i needed to wake up to escape back to my daunting reality
yet…
i was not asleep
transfixed in twilight
living for the future
trying to change the present
revisiting a checkered past
unable to ascend from a deepening abyss
spiraling controllably out of control
i screamed out for help!
suddenly
a pharate, i eclose
one of many life experiences, #81,384
i brought this on myself
life brought this out of my self
God authored this for my self-help
the intended design
remorse, missteps or futility I have none  
my season to manifest
now an aurelian
no longer able to hide my conspicuous wings
 
i awake anew
simply flutter away, high
among the clouds BOLD